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How can a life guided by deep faith change once you\u2019ve lost all belief in God\u2019s existence? <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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How can a life guided by deep faith change once you\u2019ve lost all belief in God\u2019s existence? And what can happen if you try to find that lost faith again from a new perspective? <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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Houston writer Jessica Wilbanks\u2019s <\/span><\/span>When I Spoke in Tongues<\/em><\/span><\/a><\/strong><\/span> offers compelling, evocative insights into these questions. In her debut book, she brings both personal experience and candor to the often risky process of baring one\u2019s soul in a memoir. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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A key strength in Wilbanks\u2019s narrative is her ability to draw readers into her thoughts and feelings while she, in essence, wrestles repeatedly with God. This, for example, is how she recalls the time soon after she realized she had lost the faith she previously shared with her parents and brothers: <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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\u201cThe nights were the hardest. I felt so alone, lying in bed in the dark, and found myself wanting desperately to pray. I didn\u2019t believe in God anymore, but my faith was like a faucet with broken handles. It kept coming in gushes and I couldn\u2019t seem to turn it off. I needed a hand to hold on the other side of belief. And so I did something people have been doing for centuries\u2014I made up my own God, the God I needed at that particular moment. I peeled the shell off the gruff, bearded God I had always been taught to worship and gave him a new name and a new face. I couldn\u2019t decide whether this new God should be a man or a woman, so I decided in favor of both.\u201d <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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Her new gods did not exist in heaven. They were, in her mind, \u201clocated in real physical space, in the landscape that was more beautiful to me an any other place in the world\u2014the estuaries of the Chesapeake Bay.\u201d <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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Wilbanks\u2019s book also describes struggles with other issues tied to her lost faith, including sexuality, anorexia, college life, work, personal relationships, and her mother\u2019s steadfast hope Jessica someday would return to the world that had sheltered her as a child. <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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As a University of Houston graduate student, Wilbanks began digging into Pentecostalism\u2019s history and how it had taken deep root in parts of Africa. \u201cThe more I read, the more I understood: The face of Christianity was changing,\u201d she writes. \u201cLong ago the first Christian missionaries had trickled into the headwaters of the Niger River in twos and threes, clinging to British trade ships and braving malaria to spread the good news to the so-called Dark Continent. But now, just over a century later, private jets left \u2026 Lagos [Nigeria] on a daily basis, ferrying Nigerian evangelists toward waiting crowds at churches in Europe, the United States, and elsewhere in the increasingly secular West.\u201d <\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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When I Spoke in Tongues can be good reading for almost all questioning their faith or their lack of faith. Likewise, it can be helpful to readers simply curious about faith and wondering why its presence or absence can affect all aspects of a person\u2019s life.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"